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Don't you just LOVE my new cursor for the blog?

Well I just love it. :D

ENJOY!

HOLY GRILLED CHEESE!

Well..
Until today I have never tried grilled cheese. Shocking, ain't it? xD
Most Americans (or just everybody else) make it and eat it very often.. as I have heard.
Well I got sick of hearing all that so I decided I will make my own, very first grilled cheese sandwich!

Example of a random grilled cheese sandwich.

I decided to completely dedicate myself to the project so I took 3 different cheese's and made, not 1, not 2 but 3 grilled cheese sandwiches. Oh and I needed test bunnies for my food experiments. That's where my parents get in. All I can say, it was fun. Let me now explain a pretty boring process of me making it. It's totally unnecessary, I know. :D


I cut half a loaf of bread into 6 pieces. I buttered them up and put 2 by 2 in the pan.
I used the Gouda, Trapist and Bluedino cheese. Bluedino is some kind of a crappy american cheese in slices but surprisingly it tasted better than Gouda and Trapist. Trapist barely had any taste, just burnt bread.
Gouda was pretty good and Bluedino was good too. Anyway this whole project went pretty succesfully except I burnt my finger (obviously). Not on the hot pan though, on the plate. I'm guessing the plate was close to an open flame. So uh, my thumb hurts now. :(
Worth it though! :D

The reason why I just explained and in graphic details told you about my first grilled cheese sandwich... is non-existent. I don't have anything smarter to write about.. so uh. I hope you enjoy reading this.
Oh and you probably noticed the new design of the website, and the fact how I'm obsessed with food.
Sorry 'bout that. I just.. love food.

Family, parenthood and children.

Warning: Serious topic, this one isn't for laughs.. 

Today I went out with some of my friends. We went to the cinema, watched a crappy predictable romantic comedy and stuffed ourselves with popcorn. The usual. ^^

On the way home we started discussing stuff.. While I wanted to talk about marriage equality or anything serious.. they started talking about something else. Boys, of course.  I just went along with it..

Anyway, one girl was being depressed. She worried she will never get a boyfriend, that she was ugly, blah blah.The usual teen shit.

Well I told her what's on my mind.

"*insert name*, you are 14 years old! Are you seriously expecting to find love at your age? You have your whole life to find someone!" -exact quote.

I honestly don't understand.. WHY are today's teenage girls (and boys) so worried about everything?
You're freaking 14! You don't need a boyfriend/girlfriend! I'm not saying you shouldn't have one but why worry about it? Hell, I'm not worrying 'bout that. Someday I'll meet somebody. Don't get me wrong, I don't believe in that  soul mates stuff.. but I know I will find somebody^^ 

I'm optimistic. I'm only 14. I have my whole life ahead of me. The end. 

Why worry? Enjoy your care free years while you're still a teen. Someday you might be stuck in a dead end job regretting not having fun when younger.. Who knows? But I'm not saying you should #yolo.

Studying is important.

So then we got on the subject of marriage and kids.

She said that she doesn't want either of those.

All right. Marriage.. screw it I guess.?

But then she said that she was disgusted by kids.

I was honestly shocked and repulsed.

I understand that some people just simply don't want kids and I respect that, but not for the reasons she listed!

"They smell. They cry all the time. They're ugly. They are just extra trouble." - exact quote.

Then she said this.

"They will destroy your life."

Right then all I wanted to do was punch her in the face.

What kind of a sick person SAYS THAT?

I usually try to respect people's opinions but this... I was pissed off.

I kept my cool though. I tried convincing her in having kids.

I was trying to say something along these lines:

"Imagine creating a life inside of you for 9 months, a little baby coming out of you. Loving you with all your might..etc"

She immediately reacted to my sentence saying.

"YUCK, 9 months holding it inside me? Disgusting."

I'm sorry but I simply don't understand. I just.. don't.

You know what's disgusting? That sentence.

She also said she would like to live like her aunt.

Alone, without a partner and without kids.

Honestly, what the hell?

I think she has a problem with her self-esteem.

She thinks she doesn't deserve anything.

I tried talking to her about it, she said she doesn't want to get her heart broken. That all guys are douches.

Listen up everybody. LIFE IS NOT PERFECT. It has it's ups and downs. If you don't risk some stuff in your life, you will never benefit! Life is about taking chances! 

Do you really want to be asking yourself "What if?" for the rest of your life..? Do you?

Anyway, I really wasn't planning on making this post into a huge rant but I simply needed to get this out of my system. Feel free to leave a comment with your opinions. I'd appreciate it a lot.

Look that adorable little creature in the eyes and tell me

you don't want that! Tell me you don't want to hold it,

feel it's weight in your arms and be amazed that you created that. Look at that sweet smile, those piercing eyes and tell me you don't want that! Go ahead.

 His/hers small fingers wrapping around your one finger adorably. His/hers first words, first steps..

All because of you! You have a bad day and look at that face and all of your problems just seem to vanish. Holding him/her in your and your partner's arms and just enjoying the moment, being over whelmed by all the love.

I gotta be realistic of course. They can be a drag, but so what? It's normal. You were too, some time ago! It's all worth it when you just take one look at your child.

Oh and if I was a little to subtle with the whole "This is my creation." thing, I very much support adoption too. I think people who adopt are amazing people, saving abandoned children and giving them a home. :3

All of this may sound weird. Here I am.. a 14 year old girl, already thinking about having children, discussing marriage equality and other serious problems in the world.. 

Is this the maturity everyone is talking about? xD

Nah I don't think so. I still giggle at normal sentences making them sound perverted.. Guess not, eh?

One thing I feel really frustrated about at the moment is my friends. This may sound very self-centered and bitchy  but...

 I feel misunderstood. I feel like other teens my age are different. Most of them go out, have fun, worry about boyfriends, looks and whatever. Hey, I'm not saying that I don't worry about those stuff. I'm still torn up about getting a new haircut which sounds pretty egoistical. Is that the right word?

I feel like I can't talk to my friends about more serious topics. They already got bored of me talking about marriage equality and when I try discussing kids and marriage with them (see above) they carry on to the topic of  "How hot is that boy across the street." I'm not saying that I'm above them or better than them, I'm just saying I hope I find someone similar to me someday. Someone who can discuss Harry Potter and be the most childish teenager sometimes and at the same time talk about Globalization and problems of Economic Integration, Global terrorism or any other current problems in the world. I'm asking for too much, aren't I?

Well fuck it.

I like being serious and discussing major topics.

It makes me feel good and I enjoy it very much. :)

The part I talked about my friend and her life was a private thing that I maybe shouldn't have discussed online, but not many people read this anyway. Fuck it. See *insert name*? TO TAKING RISKS! *raises glass*

Don't twist my words though! Don't go around having unprotected sex at a young age or get drunk.

I'm just saying.. you can have fun and enjoy your few more precious teen years left and be a good student at the same time, as well securing yourself a good future.

 

You don't feel anything watching those pictures?

You're telling me... you don't want that? True happiness? :)

Teen rambling.. Nothing important to read. Honestly!

It's hot.

It's 30 degrees celsius here in Croatia. (Or 86º Fahrenheit)

And it's only 19:16 or 7:16 p.m. in the evening! It was even hotter before! (post posted later)

I'm sweating like a pig (insert fat joke here) and I don't like it. *pouts*

I'm seriously considering cutting my hair since it's getting pretty long.

It's just getting in my way and I have to tie it in a pony tail all the time..
Anyway I've always been kind of obsessed with pixie haircuts.
I have a round face and it wouldn't fit me..
I know, I know.. what the hell is a tomboy doing worrying about her hair? But it's just so perfect! :3
Picture time!

Killing me.

Gah.

Ellen is rocking it too! :D

Emmaaa :)

What do I do? :(
What would Julie Andrews (who's also rocking it) do?

Think Maria, think! 

Books here, books there, BOOKS EVERYWHERE!

I think you've figured out from the title that I love books.

Well actually I love reading, not literally books. Though there is one cute book just around corner in a local library.. Wait what? Nothing. Moving on.

I just love curling up with a good book, sometimes it's at home in my amazing and utterly comfortable beanbag or in my dad's weekend cottage hammock. (as seen in my older posts)

Mine is actually light blue, similar to this one.
I love my beanbag :)

I love that feeling of getting lost in the books, completely becoming a part of  the story, feeling the characters emotions, starting to think about other characters from their prospective.. Every time a story pulls me inside like that, I literally become oblivious to the surrounding world around. Sometimes my mum comes into my room and says something and I don't hear or it takes me 30 seconds to process it and I snap out of the book with a "Whaa?". Nevertheless it's magical. I also love when you imagine the character's surroundings ex. room and if a movie comes out, you're totally stunned and deeply offended when something's not like you imagined it like it would be. I know I already wrote a post about books and reading before but you'll just have to get used to it.. :D

 

From now on you shall call me
Matilda The Bibliophile
Yes, I am serious.

One Direction Erection Infection.. Wait what?

I'm guessing you've all heard about the newest boy band that everyone's going crazy for.
Yeap. It's One Direction..
Where do I even start?
First of all let me just say.. I don't hate them, I have nothing against them but..
Their fans are goddamn annoying!! Every single day in school I hear girls singing their songs (which get stuck in my head for the rest of the week - thank you btw), discussing how sexy is Zayn and how cute is Harry's hair flip.WHY do I know that Louis's name is pronounced without the "s", that Liam has 1 kidney and that Harry's got 4 nipples. WHY BLOODY HELL WHY?
I seriously have nothing against the guys, but their fans are simply unbearable..
I'm one of the rare girls I know who hasn't gotten crazy with One Direction, Justin Bieber or whoever else is extremely famous right now. I just don't understand getting all crazy with celebrities..
Yeah sure I adore some people too but I don't go around screaming their name and squealing whenever they tweet something.. I don't even follow their twitters.. If they even have'em..
For example I love Ellen Degeneres and Portia De Rossi, Julie Andrews, Chris Colfer, Emma Watson and Emma Stone. I think they're hilarious actors/comedians/singers but that doesn't mean  I have to plan my wedding with them or something.. Am I right or what?

Randomness at its best?

Last day of school tomorrow :O
Holy shit.
That is upsetting.
Next year new school, new people, new teachers..
Changing the subject!
While you read my random ramblings feel free to click this link.
-- >  http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=d-diB65scQU#!
I guarantee it will make you feel better no matter what..
If not..
Then something is seriously wrong with you.

Well since nostalgia hit me again.. this post will be mostly about the older times.
Ironic isn't it? I'm only 14.. (soon 15) and I'm worrying about my past. My "childhood". *chuckles*
As (old) people say.. I should be outside right now. Running through meadows, catching butterflies or whatever. But here I am, listening to music, chatting with people on skype and slamming my fingers rhythmically against the keyboard. Funny, isn't it? No, not really.

Anyway here's a few pictures to show you what I mean..

This it is for now, night guys. :)

This is sad..

This is a story about one of my friends I talk to every day on skype. I don't know him in real life, he lives in Asia, Quatar, Doha while I live in Europe, Croatia, Zagreb. We're pretty far away but that doesn't stop us to talk daily and have fun. We have many things in common, from loving Minecraft to loving Trains (the band doh). One of the things we have in common also is supporting the LGBT community.LGBT stands for Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender.He reads my blog and he was really touched by my post about marriage equality.He supported the LGBT community before but after reading it he realised the seriousness of the situation.This post is dedicated to him. Thank you for being who you are. My little drama queen. :)

For you buddy! :)

One day he got an assignment to write an essay about something and present it to the whole class.
He decided to write about marriage equality. I don't need to tell you how proud I was of him.He let me read it and I loved it. I was pretty excited about his project. He could inspire his classmates, open their eyes and reassure some closeted homosexuals. But when he told his teacher what he wrote about he/she told him he couldn't write about that and to go see the principle. He went to the principle..
She said the theme was inappropriate and she didn't want people to think his school allows and supports marriage equality.  She also told him to pick another topic and write about it and never mention this again. This is sad people.. this is sad.


Did you know..?


More than 30,000 Americans commit suicide each year, and 5,000 of these people are teenagers. 1 in 3 suicides amongst teenagers are committed by homosexual ones.

I don't know the exact numbers and statistics on how many teenagers commit suicide, are thrown out or are bullied every year but it's a lot. The number don't matter anyway because..

Even one is too many.

Here's a story about a boy being thrown out at the age of 7. Can you guess why? He was gay. His parents didn't tolerate it.

http://www.thetaskforce.org/TF_in_news/07_0202/stories/3_detroitnews_dobetterforhomeless.pdf



This Sunday will be the 11th Gay Pride in Zagreb. Thousands of people will show up with banners, rainbow flags and smiles on their faces. They will constantly be surrounded by thousands of policeman.. guarding them.From who you ask? Other people. Also human beings.. but with different opinions. Homophobic people.The first Gay Pride in Zagreb was nothing like that. It was even worse. Especially the one in Split (another city in Croatia). People were yelling, screaming insults in their way.Throwing rocks.Throwing explosives.People got injured. They were taken to the hospitals. Even cameramen and journalists were injured.Police couldn't stop them. Instead of protecting people in the Gay Pride they started evacuating them.It was that bad. 
Listen up everybody. It's the 21^st century.
Time for change. Are black people still slaves? They still can't marry whites? Other races are still discriminated? Apartheid is still here? The answer is no. 

See some change? Yeap.

I'm currently following american politics, I'm very curious how is this
all gonna end with Obama, McCain and Mitt Romney.
I mentioned in my previous post about marriage equality how
Mitt Romney and McCain are against and Obama is for.
First of all I need to say something.
Thank you Obama! You're an inspiration. :)

Where was I? Right.
Gays and lesbians serving in the military.

"Mitt Romney is against the idea of letting gays and lesbians serve actively in the US Military".

That physically made me feel sick. Men and women who are willing to give their lives for their country and their freedom cannot simply because of their sexual orientation? Something that has NOTHING to do with how well they will serve. These men and women should be applauded for their bravery and patriotism, not condemned for something personal that they cannot control.
What's next? Gays and lesbians can't vote? 

Aren't we going backwards? Do we have to fight for woman's right all over again?

And again with other races not being discriminated?

Oh, I know! Let's take away that stupid clause in job applications that say they comply with the government by not discriminating based on sex, religion, race, or sexual orientation! And while we're at it, why don't we throw in separate bathrooms and water fountains. One for gays and lesbians, one for straight men and woman. After all, who wants to be around a queer? I mean, I might catch their sexual orientation or something if we're in the same vicinity. Because hanging around homosexual people would of course turn you gay, just as hanging around black people turns you black.

This ignorance is ridiculous. In the future, this will change and we will look back on ourselves and feel ashamed. Or, at least those who are anti-LBGT will. Just like looking back at slavery. And women's rights/suffrage. And segregation. In twenty, thirty years, our children are going to see these things in our history books and ask how on Earth people could be so cruel about gays and lesbians.
It's a cycle people. Throughout history this has happened. And it's happening again. A group is targeted, there are hate crimes, laws against them, legislation barring them from fundamental rights. One day this will change. The LBGT group is the next population to be liberated and receive their freedoms.

I know I posted this already but it's hilarious.

Just read it.

12 reasons why Gay Marriage should be illegal.

1. Homosexuality is not natural, much like eyeglasses, polyester, and birth control.
2. Heterosexual marriages are valid because they produce children. Infertile couples and old people can’t legally get married because the world needs more children.
3. Obviously, gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.
4. Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage is allowed, since Britney Spears’ 55-hour just-for-fun marriage was meaningful.
5. Heterosexual marriage has been around a long time and hasn’t changed at all; women are property, blacks can’t marry whites, and divorce is illegal.
6. Gay marriage should be decided by people, not the courts, because the majority-elected legislatures, not courts, have historically protected the rights of the minorities.
7. Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That’s why we have only one religion in America.
8. Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.
9. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.
10. Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That’s why single parents are forbidden to raise children.
11. Gay marriage will change the foundation of society. Heterosexual marriage has been around for a long time, and we could never adapt to new social norms because we haven’t adapted to things like cars or longer life-spans.
12. Civil unions, providing most of the same benefits as marriage with a different name are better, because a “separate but equal” institution is always constitutional. Separate schools for African-Americans worked just as well as separate marriages for gays and lesbians will.
    
    

    

    Exactly.

    
    

    

    Even Homer supports it
    Why shouldn't you?

    
    
    
    
    

If you still haven't changed your mind, read this.

:'(

In conclusion of this huge post..

It can't get more random than this, can it?

Hello there :)
So I'm just listening to music.. :)
I thought I had inspiration to write about something.. but the thing is.. I don't.
Ugh.
SUMMER! Yes!
Summer is very soon here!
Few days away ^^
Eh, what do I say?
I am megasuperfoxyawesomehot excited. AVPM reference anyone? No? Okay.. 

Where was I?
Oh my finnish penpal is coming over for the second time!
She's amazing and I can't wait :D
I think she'll spend about a month here..  Well that's gonna be pretty epic!


What else? Oh stuff. Gonna travel a lot.
etcetcetc

Still got nothing to write about.
INSPIRATION GET THE FUCK OVER HERE.
He/she ain't budging.. Ah well^^

Did you notice how I've put awful lot of memes in this post.
Hmm, I just felt like it I guess..

Yaaay! :3

Well if Snape approves.. :D

Back to reality. Actually no! I'm not going back :S
I'm staying right here! *stomps foot and crosses her arms*
Never.

Emotional post. Don't read.

4 more freakin' days of school left!
I'm supposed to "omg" now right?
And for bigger effect do a "omfg"?
And to even make it bigger I should do it in caps lock?
And also increase the manifestation?
Okay then.

OMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFG

Did I forget to add an exclamation mark?

Anyway.. I really am excited..
Summer plans etc
But since next year I'll be heading off to High school...
It's sad. :/
I'll probably never see most of my friends again.
You know those awkward friendships where you're close.. but not SO close that you go out and hang out.
Not often at least. Yeah., those kind of people I probably won't be seeing.. again..ever. *sighs*
This is what bugs me the most. I know I'll be seeing my best friends again, obviously.
But those few.. :/

Something happened today that actually showed me how much some people care..
I was crying.. at my desk.. (I can explain.. I know, I know.. Tomboys don't cry :)
One of those people came up to me today and asked me what's wrong while my "usually" best friends were standing in a corner chatting happily.
I was just overwhelmed by all the stuff happening right now.. It's complicated and I gotta say I usually never cry, well not often and not in school at least.
It meant so much to me. It opened my eyes.
And then other people noticed and came up to me..
It was something beautiful. Made me feel loved :)
Something so simple.. a simple gesture..
Seems kind of magical, ain't it?
Maybe just to me..
So this post is dedicated to one special person.. and some other amazing friends too.
Thank you.

ALL RIGHT. Enough of this emotional crap. :D
I'll probably be writing some more about losing your friends etc..
Nostalgia is hitting me real bad recently.
But nevertheless I'm happy  (:

Oh god.. I just had to urge to write another emotional post about growing up..
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
I'm getting all soft and sentimental and emotional! I swear I'm not on my period :S
Oh I'm listening to sad music.. Oops?

Jeezus.

Oh well since I'm already in this mood.. Here's an adorable picture..
*watery eyes*

Did I mention I can't wait to have kids of my own? :3

Me ^ When I first saw the pic.

Fanfiction, finals and summer. Whoa?

I haven't been writing much.
I know, I know..
I've been studying.. studying  OH and studying too!
Well anyway my school is ALMOST done. Few more days.. about 5 I think.
I don't have much time to blog ATM, I gotta go study French.. BUT
I will leave you with my newly written fanfiction.
Just posted the third chapter! About 9800 words so far :)
Check it out! http://www.fanfiction.net/s/8143186/1/Let_the_games_begin
It's a HP fanfic. I know it says Hermione/Draco but there's some Harry/Draco fluff?
Or is there?
I don't know where will the story take me yet. :)
I'd appreciate if you would check it out ;)

I leave you with a Snape pic :)

So true. HP forever <3

Tired and busy.. Not for long though!

I know, I know..
I haven't been updating much recently..
Finals have been occupying my free time and now even mah sleep time.
Of course I'm furious. Doh.
9 MORE FREAKIN' DAYS LEFT!
Aww yeahh ^^

So I promise y'all I will be writing way more after my school finishes.
Even though literally 3 - 5 people read my blog... yah. Pretty much.
Well I don't have much time so I'll be off now..
I got crap load of studying ahead of me this weekend as well with 3 hour rehearsals every day..
Mhm I got a show on Sunday.. And of course learning songs for another show.
And then learning the script for another show..
All that in 1 week.
Awesome.
Wish me luck!

I leave you with a funny picture.